Mama's Day

Today is always such a hard day for me. It's Mother's Day...the day you celebrate the person who gave you life but my mom isn't alive to celebrate with. She left us too early & I miss her everyday but especially today. If it weren't for my wonderful husband who reminds me how proud she would be of me & the mother I am to my 4 babies I would just cry all day. But thanks to this crazy man  
instead I look at my blessings & I smile because without them I wouldn't be who I am today. They are the reason I hear the word mama cried, yelled & said with such love everyday. They give the best gifts with the help of their wonderful teachers.  
These faces bring such smiles & happiness to my life especially when they are being silly.  
Happy Mother's Day especially to my mom who showed me what unconditional love is.



So this year I turned the big 4-0 & 2 days later celebrated my 10 year wedding anniversary! To celebrate some friends of mine took me out for dinner & drinks to try & help me forget that I was about to enter that dreaded new decade, my forties. It was a great night with lots of laughter & great friends.  
On my actual birthday we had a nice dinner at home followed by cake because according to my kids you can't have a birthday without cake & candles but thankfully Rick only had each of our kiddos put one candle on. It was delicious & I had it that night & for breakfast for the next 3 days. 
On our actual anniversary Rick & I got dressed up & went out to celebrate at Manhattan Beach Post. It wasn't anything extravagant but these days with 2 jobs, 4 children & all the activities they have, a quiet night alone together is the perfect night to us. And after all was said done I'm really happy with the life I have. 18 years of friendship, 16 years together, 10 years of marriage, 4 children &  a lifetime together to look forward to means we are really blessed.
I admittedly shed a tear because I turned 40 but then I counted my blessings, I got dressed & I'm telling the world this is what 40 looks like & I feel lucky.